hey i know i have disappeared for v long.

reason being my acne came back

well it really made me v sad.

i cant help but ask why again?

i am alrdy 23. wat happened?

since i worked in a hospital,my coll suggested i go for checkup.

i went.

consultation and medi FOC

mood was low.

morale was low.

dun feel like going out.
sad.

lucky my bf was ok.
i am glad tat he is not the kind of guys who will leave u cos u dun look good anymore.

is that true love?

i spent my bdae with acne on face.
of cos no pictures since acne time...

i chose to watch online hongkong dramas to escape from my problem.
thus i always appear offline.
i am actually there.

it sounds like i am zi pi rite?

if i can dun go to work, it will be perfect.

heng work can help me forget abt acne problem
at least 8hrs.

of cos i have colls askin me abt it.
most of my colls are concerned and encourage me.
i really appreciate it :) thanks !

alot of things happened in these few mths.

office
my uncle coll who doted on me was v sick.

he stayed in icu, went to normal ward and now in isolation room.

he was a healthy man, 62 yet goes joggin every weekeats healthy food.

life is unpredicatable.

my mood is always affected after i visit him.
he slimmed down alot alot...i feel v heartached.

so to me now, so wat being v thin?
i am healthy and that's more impt.

well toking abt thin, i tink i nd to say something.

i really hate it (IS REALLY HATE) when pple kept saying why are u stil so thin?

i mean is there any prob?does it got to do with you?
why must u say it all the time when we meet or see each other?
dont u have anything else to say?
i know u are concerned but since u see me for times, i am like tat, then be it lah.

i also wan to know why i am so thin when i eat chicken rice and egg for lunch and bread for snack in the afternoon and full dinner with rice, meat, veg and soup.

i duno the answer.

so can you stop asking me PLEASE?

I dont have the answer!

if u tink i am bein petty or sensitive, be it.
i dun care.

some pple are really concerned, some are just being kpo.

to avoid finding an answer for a question tat i duno the answer,
i choose not to meet these pple
i choose to avoid toking to these pple
i choose to keep away

now with acne coming back, i will get more Qs.

when I DONT HAVE THE answer.

so i will choose to stay away before i get fed up and scream LEAVE ME ALONE.

ok back to office.

a vase was hired in.
she is not in my dept.
she tinks our office phone is lousy, no caller id.
she tinks her room is small. (when office space is very limited)
she tinks our email system is lousy
she tinks our internet connection is slow
she tinks she is pretty
she tinks she is hired to be showcased
she tinks she is v smart
she tinks being a manager, she can order her executive to do admin work for her
she has thick makeup
(which scared me! cos no one did tat in our hospital)

i am v curious, how does she look when her thick makeup is removed?!

anyway she is not in my dept, just wait and see wat results she can produce ba :)

my dept is a senior citizen club.
after uncle coll fell sick, the luck in the dept sux.

3aunties colls came and left.
i buy farewell card, buy until i scared...i wonder, shld i stock up?

haha kana "scold" by thomas (my senior exe) for that :p

after losing 4.40 for nothing, i decide to set up dept funds.

previously when we got parties, i will divide out and collect $ from all.

end up there will be someone who dun pay exact (2.2o - pay 2.10 cos no 10cents then later forget)

there will be someone who signs on card & claims will pay then later forget

there will be some idiot who gives me 1cent for a 10cent (i know tat is my boss, though i no evidence)

there will be some idiot who gives me 5cents (I confirm that is my boss! why she got so many 5cents!??)

previously my buddies colls wan me to collect a fixed amt every mth, then i deduct party cost from there.

i dun wan cos i dun wan hold everyone's $.

but i alrdy lose $ until..............

i mean farewell parties are not listed in my job scope lo!

so i now collect funds from all ...

then there are pple who abuse admin staff.

sometimes this person can get on my nerves.

as long as this person tinks it is admin area, this person will tell boss need admin help cos admin staff sit near to the entrance of office.

and then this person dont get ready the materials properly for admin staff.

this person is a messy person.

and dont inform depts to avoid lunch time, admin staff also needs to eat lo !

when admin staff grumble to this person abt the messy things and situation, this person will say sorry la then next time repeat mistake again.

or forget tis forget tat.

it is not admin staff job to be a walking reminder !

boss likes this person.
cos this person knows how to say things tat boss likes to hear.

boss dont like me cos i too straight forward, i duno how to say sweet stuff.

i am not fairy, duno how to say fairy tales :)

my boss dun like to hear truth.

my clerk also knows this person messy pattern.
she nowadaes grumbles to me liao...i will tell her
"you said all these, i did not but I agree!"


i heard stories on my manager who is transferring to my dept in oct.

i dun wan to be biased.
be objective.
we shall see when she comes.

well now is nov.
i have seen her true colors.
she is A BITCH

she lies.
she tells boss stories.
she tells me A, she tells boss B.
she sets her email to Cant Print, Cant Forward, Cant Reply and Cant copy her words in the email.
(But she forgets, there is a thing called PRINT SCREEN)

she is in her 50s, had eaten more rice than me.
Why is she still doing tis kind of thing?
dun she feel shameful?

she v steady one.
she siam 2times le, management or impt meetings.
then my boss got to go alone.

my boss wan a manager to help out but this one...

her reasons are my mum sick, my maid sick.

i am waiting for the 3rd time.

reason will be My Dog sick.

haha my coll clerk laughed until...

i am arrowed to do alot of She-claim-boss-wan-me-to-do stuff.
i got to even work on off days.
can u imagine that?
i am getting tired.

i am waiting for 13rd mth and whether my promotion is approved not.
then decide how.

even my mum encourages me to look for another job.
can imagine how bad the situation is ?

relationship
sometimes things are fated i must say.

alot of things happened but we are still the one for each other.

we do mature, we do tink for each other, we do give in to each other.
maintaining a rs is not easy.

as wat he said, we can compromise.

and i tink trust in a rs is impt. :)

myself
i am hooked ..........on spree .... :(

haha! hopeless !

but i know how to control myself.

had stopped le lah :)

something happened at home, so me rather broke now :(

haiz...

ok i will post some pics of my spree items later :)