ydae went for dinner with ex colls

was tokin to a coll

he said i slim down a lot

i so sad

cos i noe it is the truth.

i already wear the tight skirt to make myself look fatter, taking the risk my bf wil nag at me
(cos we taking bike home ma)

every morning when i take escalator up in mrt station, i wil envy gals with big bums

last time i at least got abit.

now?

i felt like a flat sheet!

tell u a secret, i wear the same clothes from mon to thu, sounds like Liang Xi Mei right?

cos they wil make me look fatter, the rest of clothes i used to wear is erm...loose...

so i oso no mood to go shopping now.

too thin, wear wat oso not nice.

haiz so last night, i end up crying myself to slp.

no one seem to understand

not even my parents

no one shows support, some may tink i am the one with problem.

but does anyone really see and understand the prob?

i now know why pple wil commit suicide.

no one understands their problem so they go and die.

imagine u jump dw from a building and u regret

but u are already flying in the air liao....

so horrible...i dun haf tat courage man!

so dun worry i wun kill myself. the most i grumble, complain and come to worst, cry loh.

my target now is to get myself fatter!!!

my past n current diet is exactly the same

so is not cos i dun take this or that so i slim down.

no that is not the cause.

if u consider the following reason why i slim down, then ok loh, i admit it is happening.

i can work til quite late like 730

when i reach hme ard 830, my hunger already expire liao

no more hunger, even i swallow something down, i wil end up getting stomachache

cos my stomach dun wan the food liao

tat is unhealthy right?

now hor i realise though i eat alot, i feel full now

in an hr time, i am hungry again

this is cos my stomach did nt absorb the food at all.

now i wil eat v v v slowly, so tat my body can absorb..

hopefully i can get back my weight..